An update!
Yes, I know it's been awhile.
So what's new with Woo you ask? Not much. School is my life. I finished six straight weeks of midterms, huzzah. Now I have assignments and quizzes left and some pre-labs for a lab that I'm barely passing. That's a different story.
So I had a potentially-but-most-likely-not-life-changing-moment when I decided to write the Optometry Admissions Test (OAT) before the end of the year so I can apply to Waterloo's School of Optometry. I figure I try it out once this time see how it goes, if I do well it's one less thing to worry about. If I do shitty, I can do it again in the summer... Sure it shows that I did it twice but the second time around I better do damned well.
My future seems to be dimming and getting brighter at the same time. The closer I get to graduation the closer it seems that I'll either be in Optometry or I'll be going home with a useless degree and nothing to show for it except burning a hole in my dad's wallet.
Okay, so I exaggerate a little. A degree is better than no degree and at the moment my chances of getting into Optometry in the United States is perfectly fine [minus the ridiculous amount of references I need] however I prefer to stay in Canada.
Why? For one thing, if I don't get into Canada it'll probably the first and most significant thing in my life that I'll have failed to achieve. I've had a good life. I've been able to accomplish pretty much anything I've ever wanted education-wise. Going to the States for school not only means paying more and having to move away from a place I'm settled in again and having to confront a whole new strange way of life - that's all fine and dandy. It's having the "sorry but you're not accepted" to the one place I want to go. It's having that one failure happen to be the one major thing that you need to have passed.
My friends and my past friends have known me to be someone that's smart and could possibly achieve anything I've ever wanted. It's hard to think that I'm no longer that person. Not going to Waterloo's School of Optometry is failure in my mind. I don't want to have to settle for anything else.
It's "do or die" time. If I want to get into Waterloo Optometry I need to kick it into gear for my last year and a half. If not, who knows...
So what's new with Woo you ask? Not much. School is my life. I finished six straight weeks of midterms, huzzah. Now I have assignments and quizzes left and some pre-labs for a lab that I'm barely passing. That's a different story.
So I had a potentially-but-most-likely-not-life-changing-moment when I decided to write the Optometry Admissions Test (OAT) before the end of the year so I can apply to Waterloo's School of Optometry. I figure I try it out once this time see how it goes, if I do well it's one less thing to worry about. If I do shitty, I can do it again in the summer... Sure it shows that I did it twice but the second time around I better do damned well.
My future seems to be dimming and getting brighter at the same time. The closer I get to graduation the closer it seems that I'll either be in Optometry or I'll be going home with a useless degree and nothing to show for it except burning a hole in my dad's wallet.
Okay, so I exaggerate a little. A degree is better than no degree and at the moment my chances of getting into Optometry in the United States is perfectly fine [minus the ridiculous amount of references I need] however I prefer to stay in Canada.
Why? For one thing, if I don't get into Canada it'll probably the first and most significant thing in my life that I'll have failed to achieve. I've had a good life. I've been able to accomplish pretty much anything I've ever wanted education-wise. Going to the States for school not only means paying more and having to move away from a place I'm settled in again and having to confront a whole new strange way of life - that's all fine and dandy. It's having the "sorry but you're not accepted" to the one place I want to go. It's having that one failure happen to be the one major thing that you need to have passed.
My friends and my past friends have known me to be someone that's smart and could possibly achieve anything I've ever wanted. It's hard to think that I'm no longer that person. Not going to Waterloo's School of Optometry is failure in my mind. I don't want to have to settle for anything else.
It's "do or die" time. If I want to get into Waterloo Optometry I need to kick it into gear for my last year and a half. If not, who knows...
2 Comments:
Well Eric, it was a nice surprise to hear from you, and especially nice that the message left was supportive. I know I've come a long way, and you're right, its better to have a degree than not. I know that my motivations are acceptable, but it's not enough to make me want to study and get the grades. It almost seems acceptable to me, just to get by, and that's my trouble. You are still the genius I know, and I'm sure you're going to get what you're going for. I mean, whos to stop a communist dictator?
Who is to judge on what can or cannot be done? It is what you've become and what you've put yourself through that is the test of character.
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